Mostly because as a member of it, I'm really starting to get into some of the things that V.I. Lenin had to say about the Mensheviks.
...The Mensheviks, led by Martov, favoured a large, loosely organised democratic party whose members could agree to differ on many points. They were prepared to work with the liberals in Russia and they had scruples about the use of violence. The Bolsheviks, led by Lenin, were hardline revolutionaries who would not have known a scruple if it bought them a drink.
Lenin had no time for democracy and no confidence in the masses. He wanted a small, tightly organised, strictly disciplined party of full-time members who did what they were told, followed the party line in every particular and would be far more difficult for the Tsarist police to infiltrate. (One of the congress’s own organising committee, as it happened, was an agent of the Russian secret police.)
In his notes at the time Lenin called his group ‘hards’ and his opponents ‘softs’. When a delegate lamented that uncomradely attitudes were spoiling the congress, Lenin sharply replied that, on the contrary, he relished a good open fight instead of endless inconclusive talk. His attitude was attacked as elitist and tyrannical. The youthful Trotsky, now and for years to come a Menshevik, reportedly told Lenin at one point, ‘That’s dictatorship you’re advocating,’ to which Lenin replied, ‘There is no other way.’
I'm not cool with dictatorships. I have literally spilled my blood and more relevantly, the blood of others in opposition to them.
And yet sympathy for Lenin's frustrations (although not his goals, lets be damn clear (* as well as fucking clear*) about that) begin to gnaw at me.
I am losing patience with the white bread middle class.